Blogging Chalange

So it seems like this is the new things to do. I love these sort of getting to know me things so Im going to do this for the next 10 days-

Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten people right now.

Day 2: Nine things about yourself that most people don't know.
Day 3: Eight things you couldn't live without.

Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you could change or wish you would have never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you.
Day 7: Four turn offs.

Day 8: Three turn ons.
Day 9: Two words that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.

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1. JAB

I just want to say I'm sorry and thank you. Thank you for putting up with all my mood swings and drama and issues for the last 6 weeks since I've been here in Ctown. I'm sorry things have been so difficult for me  being here, I never thought it would be this hard. I have faith that one day we will look back at this time and laugh and remember that its times like these that make us stronger. I love you so very much and I wish there was more I could do for you. I know your birthday wasn't a big deal, because I c0uldnt afford to make it really special, but I promise I will make it up to you :)

2. Mrs JAB (his mom)

I wish I was closer to you and your family. I am glad that you enjoyed your get well soon card and I hope that you really think I'm a keeper for your wonderful son JAB. I wish you would tell your daughter to stop being such a drama crazy bitch, and explain that as a married women with a  baby she shouldn't be doing the things that shes doing. I cant wait to meet you!

3. Mr UWG

To the ass**** who decided I wasnt worthy of the job at UWG I would like to tell you what a major huge mistake you made! You and your school really lost out by not hiring me! I hope that whoever you hired does a good job for the students sake, but they wont have the joy, the drive, the energy or the gumption I have! 

4. Mom

I know you went to an Ivy League college and got your degree in 3.5 years. You worked in corporate America for many years and you were an executive at a very young age. You bought your first car, a BMW at age 25 and you wore channel at least once a week. But I never knew you spent the first year out of college waiting tables. This little fact made me feel much better that I may be working a less then ideal job, but its ok because one day I will have everything I ever wanted (just like you do now). Also - thank you for raising me the way you did. I hope I make you proud

5. All My Married Friends

I cant believe that I have so many of you. I love you all so very much and in some ways I am really jealous of you, you have your prince charming, your happy, you had a big wedding (well one of you did) and now your living with the man of your dreams. There are many days that I wish I was in your shoes, but I am happy I'm not. I am not ready to be married. I am not ready to be settled down. I am still figuring out who I am and what makes me happy. 

6. My blogger/twitter friends

Y'all are amazing! I have always had a hard time making friends, and the ones I do never seem to be that good of friends. I have tried to maintain strong friendships with so many of them, but its really hard. I have never felt so accepted and welcomed and loved by anyone as I do with y'all. When I have a bad day, you are all so supportive and kind, and when I have a good day, your there smiling with me. I wish I could gather you all into a room with buckets of the best campaign and a massive meal so we could all just sit and chat and laugh and love being together! I plan to visit and meet as many of you as I possibly can!

7. Future Boss

I dont know who you are yet but I cant wait to meet you. I want to thank you in advance for giving me the position and to tell you that I will work hard and keep a positive attitude. 

8. Lilly Pulitzer

I am a newbi Lilly Lover and I adore all your things, the prints all make me happy and everything seems like its really high quality. My issue is the sizes, you dont make anything bigger then a 14/16. I am a plus size girl, and yes, Im trying to lose weight and get in shape, but I wont be a 12 for at least another 6+ months. I wish you would make your clothing in plus sizes (and this doesnt mean just going up to 16, but maybe to a 28. I know its shocking but us bigger women also want to wear cute, preppy clothes

9. Chase Crawford

The readers of my blog have no idea who you are or what you have done to me. I have nightmares, even 3+ years later, about you and the things you did. Every time I go to therapy they ask me where all the issues started and your name is what I say. I have to answer peoples questions when they see my ankle, watch the horror in their eyes as they try and wrap their mind around the story I tell me. Each time I start a new relationship I have to tell them about the horrors I have been through. I don't hate you, I despise you. I dearly hope and pray that you will never have a happy day for the rest of your days. I hope you suffer like you have caused me to suffer. A person like you should never call themselves a man, or even a human being. You don't deserve that respect. 

10. My 1st Blog Swap Partner

I want you to know that I think your a major Bit**! I was so excited to be a part of MRM's swap. I made up the cutest box for you and spent all the extra $$ I had to make it wonderful. I waited and waited and waited to receive my swap box but I never did :( I was so hurt and upset. I have considered sending you a note in the mail to tell you all these things, but Im not going to. Just remember karma's a bitch. 

Life Update

After looking at my phone to figure out what day it is I figured I might as well drag myself to my laptop and write a post about my life at the moment. I went home to Atlanta for the weekend, just to get away from this horrible town. I drove over an hour to meet a women who said she wanted to take Rhett (according to my apartment I cant have him any more and I owe them $250 + they might decide to evict me). She changed her mind when she saw that he needed to be groomed.

I went shopping and bought some things for my various blog swaps and a few gifts for some friends, only to come to find out that a check I got from selling a friend some clothing bounced so I only have $60 till the 1st of Oct and I need gas and groceries.

Looks like I wont be going to see Luke Bryan because I cant afford a $20 tix.

I was fully prepared to find a part time job today, I got up early, unpacked a load from my car and checked my mail to get a nice letter from UWG saying they dont want me. After 2 interviews and me telling them all my knowledge of phone centers, they chose to hire someone else. So that dream job Ive been praying for every night and Ive blogged about multiple times, ya, didnt get it. I now have the letter hanging above me desk.

So right now Im sitting in front of my computer, my home is a mess, I cant afford to buy gas to look for a job, I have no job prospects, I have no puppy to comfort me, JAB is at work and doesnt know about the job yet, my parents are "disappointed in me" for not getting the job, I still have no friends here, Im broke, my bff AT is coming to ATL this weekend but cant spare 10 min from her boyfriend to even see me, I keep getting invited to events back in my college town, my college bff JSO is not only married but preggers and due in dec (so much for our holiday plans). To say that Im not having a good day, week, month, year, would be pretty exact.

Oh and to add to my stress, my period is late and Im panicking.

Now im headed back to my car to get my blanket and pillow and Im going to sob in bed for a few hours.

Oh ya - and bc I dont have a job I cant afford to go to the doctor to get more anti-depressants, so things are only looking down.

Welcome to the New Girl

hey y'all

I have some super exciting news.... I made a friend! He lives in carrollton! I am soooo excited about this you dont even know! Just having someone to hang out with other then  JAB is an exciting prospect. Its not that I dont love him dearly or Im getting there, but being together all the time can be stressful. We fight a lot these days about stupid stuff because Im lonely and depressed and he doesn't understand why. Well my new Friends name is J****, but were gonna call him BG, Band Geek. He works at the same airline JAB works at and has a history degree from UWG. Hes very nice and funny and we get along great. Yay, my 1st friend!

so moving on to the point of this post, a few months ago you may or you probably dont remember I did a blog post about my friend D who got married and moved to Germany. Well today she started a blog! I am super excited to be able to read it and be supportive of her (shes having a ruff time) and I would love you ladies (and gents) to welcome her to blogging with open arms. Please go check out her blog and introduce yourself. She is an amazing women and I love her and miss her more then she knows!

Im calling this post TV Tuesday

o its Tuesday, and I will admit, I had to actually look up on my cell to make sure I was right, its been one of those days. I HATE HATE HATE being unemployed! Ive had a few leads on jobs but its a sit around and wait game :( I sent the admissions director and assistant admissions director of UWG hand written thank you notes for interviewing me. Im hoping the personal touch reminds them of me and they hire me (please keep your fingers crossed). I also had an interview scheduled with Kids Peace about a month a go, but it had to be rescheduled. The thing is, they never called to reschedule it :( so Im calling them tomorrow to find a time to interview.

but the topic of this blog is TV. Becuase I dont have a job, Im not making any money, so to keep myself from spending $$ I dont have, I am staying in and watching A LOT of TV. I keep losing track of the shows I like to watch, and what night they're on, so I decided to take a piece of plywood and my new found love of chalkboard paint, and created this!

It hangs on the wall and I can change it when ever I need to. I have the show name, the time and the channel its on. It may be ugly but for right now I really like it. Im also going to show you some of the cute stuff I found at Target last night but I DIDNT buy... which was super hard.

 

I love love love this! You can put your own monogram in!

 

I wanted to get these shoes so bad! But even on sale I knew I didnt need them so I passed :( very sad