Reach Out To Someone

Yesterday I learned of the death of a very dear friend. I am so numb I cant even believe its real. I was planning to see him in just a few weeks. I've been crying on and off all day. Every little thing reminds me of him. He gave the best hugs, because you always knew he meant it when he hugged you.

This week I am making a point to call all of my friends, send them a letter, something, just to tell them how special and amazing they are and how much I love them. I don't want anyone leaving this earth & not knowing how much I cared for them.

Kate, my high school/church bff & I had a huge fight this fall. We haven't spoken since, which hurts me. I was thinking I was standing up to her bulling by not apologizing first but I am finally realizing it doesn't matter who says sorry first. It doesn't matter that we have almost nothing in common these days, what matters is that were friends and I want her to know how important she is to me.

Im going to write her a letter tonight, telling her how sorry I am and how much I miss being her friend. I hate that it took a death of someone I really loved for all this to click into place, but it did.

My dad offered to take me to church to light a candle for David, but I cant, not yet. First I need to forgive myself for not being a good enough friend to him. I could have called more, visited him, told him how much he meant to me. But now all I can do is look at pictures and remember him.

Today I am issuing a challenge, go through your phone, or your facebook and find 5 people, or maybe even just 1 person, you call a friend but haven't talked to, or you had a fight with. Make an effort to reach out to them and say hi. See how they're doing, go have dinner, or lunch, or coffee if they live near by. Make memories now, take pictures, listen to their voice, hug them extra tight, because you never know when they wont be there anymore.