That Sinking Feeling

You know that feeling right before you get sick? That almost sore throat, body feels crummy feeling, well that's me right now. Plus hungry, tired, and all around depressed. Lets just say I've had a not so awesome week and its only Tuesday.

Lets start with the sick feeling. Ryan txted me Sunday night & said he thought he was getting sick. Of course, my body picked up on his que and now I'm feeling under the weather.

Then its a Monday, or yesterday was. Last Monday of training. And guess who hasn't found a new job, I haven't even applied for one. truth is I have no idea how to even go about looking for a job. I figure Ill send my resume into any & all company HRs that I can think of. But there are so many companies out there I don't know. Ugh being a grown up sucks.

My 25th birthday is 16 days away and I couldn't be less excited. I'm not ready to change my age bracket, Not ready to be in my mid 20s, not ready to be the 25 year old who lives at home because she cant afford a place of her own. I'm not ready to be a huge disappointment.

My room is a mess. More like a hot mess. Like I need a cleaning crew to help me with it. Ive been so busy the last 5 months traveling, I cant remember the last time I even looked at my room other then to dump my suitcase & sleep. Ryan's coming on Friday & I want it to be perfect. I want to impress him. But I'm so overwhelmed I'm not sure if that's gonna happen.

My parents are in a mood. At least my mom is. Bitching & snipping. I just want to find somewhere to hide from her attitude, which is not possible because shes constantly emailing and txting me.

Weight watchers sucks. I haven't lost a pound. Not one. I also haven't gained which is good. But since the great debacle at the gym I'm too embarrassed to go back. I don't want to be heckled by the trainers because I couldn't afford them and they're workouts weren't working. I want to get in shape but I cant motivate myself, and I hate myself for it.

I need to unpack my car, do 3 more loads of laundry, plan this weekend, work out & eat something healthy tonight. And clean the dining room and the garage.

Sorry to be such a debbi downer.

Head Above Water

Mom Maeve Me & Dad 

The bachelorette party... Ill explain more later

1st GSU home game

Ryan & his parents

The Party

The cupcakes

Hello All!

I am sorry I have been gone so long, I have been just overwhelmed with my life. Between labor day, the bachelorette & Ryan's birthday I am broke, spent and exhausted. I promise to start blogging again soon but I figured Id give you a little recap on my life:

Ryan & I tubing (labor day weekend)

Brooks & Lindsey

At the lake

Brooks & Ryan

Ryan & his nephew Emory