1 Year Ago

One year ago was August 31 2010 and I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I packed up my home, my dreams, my plans into a uhaul truck and I moved to Carrolton, GA.

Now I'm sure some of you are thinking "what so bad about Carrolton?" and the answer is nothing. There's a target and a Kroger so the city itself isn't that bad. Its the reason I moved. I moved for a guy, my boyfriend at the time, JAB. I know my long time readers remember him. You also probably remember how miserable I was when I was there.

 I had no friends, no job, and I wasn't in school. At first I thought it would be OK, getting to see JAB every day after being long distance for 6 months.

Boy was I wrong. It took about a month or so for me to realize that he didn't like spending time with me because it took away from his friend time. He lived in a big house with a bunch of guys and he wanted to spend all his time with them. I went from being important to going to the back burner.

Then he lost his job and he lost all interest in everything. He was moody and hateful to me, removed from his friends. He just sunk into a horrible place and pushed away everyone that he cared about, especially me.

Finally in November I got a grown up job back in Atlanta. My parents welcomed me home with open arms and I left JAB and Carrolton behind in the dirt.

In some ways this is a thank-you post to my parents for allowing me to make mistakes on my own and being there to help dust me off when I fell.  Or maybe it's my way of forgiving JAB for everything he put me through. Either way I learned a major life lesson -

NEVER FOLLOW SOMEONE ELSE, FORGE YOUR OWN PATH

So that's what I'm doing now, forging my own path. I'm getting control of my life, figuring out what the next step is, living my life for myself, not anyone else.