Blogging Chalange Day 5

Day 5: Six things you wish you could change or wish you would have never done.

1 - I wish I had been firmer when I told my parents I needed help coping with depression. I was about 8 and I remember leaving a note on my parents bed saying I was sad on the inside and I wanted to talk to someone about it. It never happened. I went on dealing with it until college. I remember the health center was hosting a depression screening and I took a test for fun, with my girl friends. I handed the test in and the counselor said she would love to meet with me and chat. I had a meeting with her every week for an hour. It was wonderful, and I miss her and being able to talk to someone like her. She really understood me. 

2 - I wish I had left Chase when I had the chance. I had been with him a few months and another guy asked to meet up with me. I ended up kissing Charlie and I really liked him, but I was in love with the idea of being in love with Chase and I told him. We broke up for a little bit and then got back together. I wish we had stayed broken up.

3 - I wish I had told my friends I was leaving Converse instead of just not going back. It was the only way to get away from Chase and the abuse and the unhappiness, but I should have called them, or written, or something. Because of it I lost a lot of good friends. I am only know trying to rekindle these friendships. 

4- I wish I had taken the chance to work at Disney my junior year in college. I was accepted into the Disney College program but I turned down the opportunity.  

5 - I wish I had taken a 13th year and gone back to europe when I had the chance. My parents thought it would be good for me, but as usual, I didnt listen to them and went strait to college. 

6- I cant think of anything else right now. Im sure there is plenty of things I wish or I should or If only, but the bottom line is that I did what I did and I am here in my life. Sorry if this post is too heavy, I've had a ruff week and I really ruff day. I found Rhett a new home, but his re-homing fee doesnt begin to cover the fines. I know this is just a ruff patch and things will get better, but it doesnt seem like it right now.