Sunday, September 12, 2010

30 Days of me - Day 13

day 13- a letter to someone who has hurt you recently

 This is sort of a hard one for me to do. The people who have hurt me recently have been removed from my life. I moved away from them, deleted any links to them, and hate to admit to ever have known them. But I guess here it goes


Dear MG
First of all I simply want to ask you why you have spent so much time and energy hating me and trying to hurt me. It started in high school when the rumors you spread devastated me and my friends. It ruined friendships and hurt me deeper then you will ever know. Then I went 2 wonderful years where you were out of my life. The stress was lower and I wasn't betrayed. The when I transferred schools and I randomly ran in to you. To this day I wish I had never re-met you. I wish my mother hadn't heard through the grape vine that you went to my new school. I wish you had left me alone. You started off kind, being my friend but quickly began to use me and try and hurt me. You asked me to rush your sorority only to spread rumors about me and make the other girls hate me. Yous stole money from me, lied to my face, spread rumors about me, made my life a living hell. I tried to distance myself from you, simply to keep the peace but you continued to pick fights. I guess I want to know why you felt the need to ruin my life? What had I ever done to you, other then be a kind, dear, if not stupid friend? I hope you know how horrible you made the "best years of my life". You have hurt me beyond anything and yet you are still loved by our friends, where as I am hated. I have been taught to forgive and forget, but for the things you have done I will never forgive and I will never forget. I don't wish you ill, but I simply wish you will one day have to deal with the pain and suffering I dwelt with for the 8 years of knowing you. 


B


Please don't ask me to discuss what she did. I am not willing to speak of those things. If you know who this is, or know some of the situation, I ask you don't comment about it. Just send me a separate email.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

9 Years Ago Today

 **please pause my regular play list and turn the volume on your computer up**

9 years ago today I was a freshmen at St. Pius X in Atlanta, Ga. I had been living in the US for about 5 weeks. I was living in a small, 3 bedroom rental apartment with my family. I had about 4 friends at school and I was trying to break into the theater program. Every day when we had in class prayer, I would pray for all my friends I had left in Europe.

I don't remember many days specifically from that year, maybe performances, or events, but not whole days. Except for Tuesday, September 11th. I remember everything from that day. I attended my 1st period class like normal and then continued onto my 2nd period class, religion with coach Gilbert. He was trying to explain something, with a mess of notes on the board. I was looking at RN like he was crazy and she giggled. Then someone knocked on the door, nothing exciting. Coach Gilbert was called out of class, which was a little weird. Normally he would have the note and kept on teaching. He was out there for what seemed like ever, but was probably about 2 minutes. He came back in and just sort of stood there looking out at us. He didn't say anything, he just kept staring at us. Then, taking a deep breath he said, "someone is attacking New York City". We all sort of stared at him, not understanding what was going on.

He turned on the TV, which was all static. After fiddling with it, an image appeared on the screen. It is an image I will never forget. Smoke poured out of the towers, at this point they had both been hit. I was trying to imagine what was going on, having never been to NYC. The news didn't explain why this was such a big deal (other then the obvious).

Then the pentagon was hit. The news man said it, but I don't remember seeing pictures. I turned to RN and asked her what the pentagon was. Living over seas, my education had been more world focused then US focused. I had studied America and its history, but not in depth. She tried to explaine it to me but the bell rang and the principal came on the speaker system. He addressed the school and told them what had happened. He told us we would continue on with the regular school day, and he would keep us updated with any new news.

I walked through the breeze way to the math and science building (clear on the other side of the campus) where I went to Mr. Carroll's Algebra II math class. Mr. Carroll (CC), now a basketball coach at a small college, was by far my favorite teacher. He was strict and encouraged competitiveness between his students. I always excelled in his class because of his structure. Now CC loved giving detentions, and he was very very strict about his starting class on time policy. We had to have our bottom in the seat when the bell rang, or we were late. There was a boy in my class, GM, and he was the class clown. He was smart, and he worked with CC. GM had a hard time with the rule, and he would always taunt CC by hanging out and not sitting in his seat.

Well this day, when the bell rang, GM was not in his seat. He was not even in the classroom. He was the only one missing so when CC asked if anyone had seen him, someone said had. CC then sent the attendance form to the office (how SPX made sure we were all in the right place at the right time, no skipping classes). CC said he was aware of what was happening, but that we needed to continue with class as we had a test later that week. So we all got down to business. About 10 minutes into class, the door opened and GM walked in. A hush fell over the class, as we waited for him to explain where he had been and what CC was going to say. Without being asked GM told CC "I was in the chapel praying" and he sat down. I was new to an all catholic school, I had attended international schools so we had religion classes but no religious affiliation. I was aghast when CC said that was fine, and continued to teach. This may not seem like a big deal to you, but this memory sticks out in my mind so clearly.

After that class we were sent home from school because we were in a 10 mile radius of the CDC and city officials were afraid it might be the next target. It was chaos with everyone calling home for rides and parents trying to get off work. I finally got picked up by my mom and we got my brother and sister and went home. My dad returned home soon after and then the work began.

We all got on separate computers trying to get a hold of friend in Belgium. NATO headquarters is located there so it was at a very high risk of attack. Our cable was out, so we had to use a wire hanger to try and pick up signal to just watch TV. Our internet was slow and phone calls weren't going through, so it was a very very scary time for us.  I remember crying myself to sleep that night begging God to keep everyone safe.

I offer these photos in remembrance of what happened that day




Friday, September 10, 2010

Five Question Friday

1. Do you feel guilty spending money on yourself?
errrr Is it bad if I say no? Its not like I spend a lot of money on myself. I buy second hand things for myself as to save money. This last month I went without a lot of things so I could afford to buy JAB birthdays gifts. I tend to buy more food for myself then anything. I don't mean like food to survive, but like things to bake cakes or try an extravagant new recipe.
 
2. How well do you know your neighbors?
No. I moved in about a month ago and I have not even seen a neighbor. I have thought about making some cupcakes and bringing them to my neighbors, but I'm worried they will think I'm weird. lol.
 
3. What age are you looking forward to being?
employed! I still have not heard from any of the 30+ jobs I have applied for :(
 
4. Do you get excited when the mail comes? Why?
Every day. Mail is prob the one thing that gets me out of my apartment for a little bit and doesnt cost me a thing. I get junk mail, letters from friends, catalogs, movies and other random stuff. It's been the highlight of my day many times.
 
5. What is your earliest childhood memory?
I'm not sure if its a memory or just a story I have been told many many many times and thus I feel like its a memory. My mom and I used to love going on walks when I was little. I would be in the stroller and she would push me all over town. She would always take a back of cookies and crackers with her to keep me occupied while we were out. She would pass a cookie down over the top of the stroller and I would take it and eat it. When she would run out of cookies which happened way to often she would pass me a cracker. Since she was behind me, she couldn't see me, but with out skipping a beat, she would see a little hand with a little cracker pop over the top of the stroller. I was passing the cracker back hoping for another cookie. Only after she told me there were no more cookies would the hand go down and I would eat the cracker. This story is almost always funnier when told to people who know me because they see how I havnt changed they know my personality. 

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Thursday, September 9, 2010

Fur Baby

so tomorrow I am going to meet with a wonderful women in Atl who has 2 dogs she need adopted. She saw my add on craigslist saying I was looking for a small fur baby. I am hoping I will fall in love with one, or maybe, God forbid, both.

there names are Toby and Rudy

not Toby, but this is a cavachon
Toby is 8 months old and is a cavachon cavalier king/ Charles/Bichon mix
Rudy is 5 months old and is a cavapoo cavalier king Charles/poodle mix
This is not Rudy, but its a cavapoo
My question to all my wonderful readers is does anyone have any experience with these sorts of dogs? any tips or pieces of advice?

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